5 February 2014 ~ A day to remember

“It is terrifying to think that one day you will trust somebody enough to let them see you naked. You will undress and remind them that you have stretch marks and birth marks and scars from having chicken pox when you were little and scars from all of the other things now. You will blush thousands of shades of red, painting yourself as a rose losing its petals. And that person - that person will take it all in. And I wonder if they will reassure you. But mostly, I wonder if they will even see anything worth reassuring you about. I hope they see each freckle on your back as if it’s a star and you are the whole universe to them.”

And I am glad I found someone who always reassures me every time I tell him that wearing glasses makes me feel ugly, who will always tell me how beautiful I look with specs on, with my messy hair, my dark under eye circles, freckles and blemishes. Someone who always tell me "you don't have to put makeup on, I love you without your makeup and so on" .. Isn't it amazing to have someone reminding you the little things in life that make you happy. Someone to whom you can complain about all your flaws but he will love each one of them. I am glad and grateful for having you in my life.

<3

Change ~

There was this one day where I was having late night conversations with him about how people change, what kind of person we are going to be in 10 years and so on. I used to be that selfish person who only cared for herself, whatever the situation might be. I've never really understood the meaning of family because let's be honest, I've got a crazy family. And that's probably one of the reasons I was wired that way. For what's its worth, its never too late to be whoever you want to be. Its not that I want to change or I've worked on it but it just happened. And honestly, I can't be any happier with who I've become.

I may not have many friends like I used too but I am totally fine with that. I am grateful for my high school years, but that's all. I just don't see myself with my old friends anymore, gossiping about other people or tv series or whatsoever because these things don't really matter. I am not the kind of person who likes gossiping with friends anymore, hanging out, partying, swearing/joking around. Yes people, you can say that I've become this boring person, or I'm not enjoying my life anymore. But things change, people grow up and the things that I used to like, well they don't make me happy anymore. I have no interest in being the person I used to be. So if you want to call me or us boring, go ahead. But one day, when you find the right one, the things that once mattered, won't anymore. Because you will realize that no matter how many good memories you have from the past, the new memories you want to create are with the half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. They will be the ones who will pick you up in 30 years or so. You won't go to your high school friends, work mates or college friends when you are in trouble. Family and Love - that's where you will go to. 


So, I want to say Thank You. Being with you has really changed my point of view about everything. I've never really cared about the importance of money or saving up for the future. I wasn't a grateful person and I used to hide my emotions or weirdness with other people. There are so much things I've learned from you, not because you taught me but just by being yourself, by knowing you, your principles and your thoughts about every single thing. So Thanks!

"If people refuse to look at you in a new light and they can only see you for what you were, then they have to go."

“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”

Paint it in your mind~

Every time you want to give up, remember that you've got a lot of motherfuckers out there to prove wrong but most importantly,you gotta prove wrong to yourself.